I do not believe in myself. I am in a battle with my mind every morning and when I lose, a crippling fear that floods my mind and it kill the seeds of wisdom my teachers imparted upon me.
I allow my value as a person to be dictated by outside sources. Not good enough I say to myself. Not strong enough I say to myself. Not worth anything. I dishonor my teachers in this practice. I need to come up with my own Dharma. Both the Buddha and Socrates encouraged me to forge my own path. They wrote no map to lead me to enlightenment as I must write my own map.
I need to write my own Dharma. I don’t know what it is that I’m doing but the message the aforementioned two left behind continues to inspire me.